…rage, rage against the dying of the light!

Day 5 of my September challenge to blog every day for a month, inspired by Effy’s blog along.

Today, I’m struggling. I don’t want to write. I don’t want to do today’s Facebook live video (that other thing I’ve committed to doing daily this month). I want to go back to bed.

Why? I can’t really put my finger on it. Maybe it’s the fact that “sleep” and “schedule” have become oxymorons in my life lately. Maybe it’s the crushing number of people I adore who are dealing with extreme health issues, loss, or deep anxiety. It could be the wildfires, storms, and floods sweeping across the country, endangering people I care about and people I have never met. Maybe it’s the violence and hatred boiling over in our country and around the world, based on something as irrelevant to a persons value as the color of their skin, the name they call God, or who they love.

I feel beaten down and bone weary, but I will not give in.

What does not giving in look like? It changes day to day, moment to moment. Some days, it means deleting Facebook from my phone for a few days – a mental health break, if you will. (It’s amazing how reenergizing it is to unplug for a while.) some days it’s getting a massage, doing yoga, or napping on the porch.

Today, not giving in looks like getting up off of my butt and going to the gym- the LAST thing I felt like doing. But along with not giving in to emotional collapse, I have learned to not give in to the lure of comfort in the immediate moment when there are things I aim to do. For more on that, check out yesterday’s post.

I went with the intention of doing my minimum time on the treadmill and I ended up going for longer than I ever have! The feeling of breaking through resistance is indescribable.

Action is the best way to combat inertia. One step forward at a time.

Are you exhausted, overwhelmed, and/or ready to pull your hair out by the roots? I’d love to hear what’s going on in your life. Sharing our troubles makes the burden much lighter for us all.

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8 Responses

  1. Ginette

    Wow! Way to go! You rock, Kim 🙂
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  2. Kim Forman

    Thanks, Ginette! 😊

  3. Lisa Taunton

    Woohoo!!! Go Kim!!

  4. Kim Forman

    Thanks, Lisa!

  5. Effy

    Action is everything. <3
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  6. Kim Forman

    Yes. It truly is everything.

  7. Sal Scheibe

    Inspiring! Not giving in is awesome and I wish that were me but honestly, I can be so lazy. But I like your action combating inertia. A good post for me to read today 🙂

  8. Kim Forman

    Thank you. I used to think I was lazy, too! I wrote about it in a post a day or two ago, called Your Story Is Not Written in Stone.

    What I learned, only about 2-3 years ago was that the tendency I called “lazy” was really just a misplaced priority. I was unconsciously placing my desire for immediate comfort over my desire to reach my goals. All it takes is to decide and then ACT. Making the decision and getting into position is the hardest part.
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