Day 5 of my September challenge to blog every day for a month, inspired by Effy’s blog along.
Today, I’m struggling. I don’t want to write. I don’t want to do today’s Facebook live video (that other thing I’ve committed to doing daily this month). I want to go back to bed.
Why? I can’t really put my finger on it. Maybe it’s the fact that “sleep” and “schedule” have become oxymorons in my life lately. Maybe it’s the crushing number of people I adore who are dealing with extreme health issues, loss, or deep anxiety. It could be the wildfires, storms, and floods sweeping across the country, endangering people I care about and people I have never met. Maybe it’s the violence and hatred boiling over in our country and around the world, based on something as irrelevant to a persons value as the color of their skin, the name they call God, or who they love.
I feel beaten down and bone weary, but I will not give in.
What does not giving in look like? It changes day to day, moment to moment. Some days, it means deleting Facebook from my phone for a few days – a mental health break, if you will. (It’s amazing how reenergizing it is to unplug for a while.) some days it’s getting a massage, doing yoga, or napping on the porch.
Today, not giving in looks like getting up off of my butt and going to the gym- the LAST thing I felt like doing. But along with not giving in to emotional collapse, I have learned to not give in to the lure of comfort in the immediate moment when there are things I aim to do. For more on that, check out yesterday’s post.
I went with the intention of doing my minimum time on the treadmill and I ended up going for longer than I ever have! The feeling of breaking through resistance is indescribable.
Action is the best way to combat inertia. One step forward at a time.
Are you exhausted, overwhelmed, and/or ready to pull your hair out by the roots? I’d love to hear what’s going on in your life. Sharing our troubles makes the burden much lighter for us all.